Reality & Fantasy

I find myself thinking every day about what's real in my life and what's fantasy and i come to realize that there is much more fantasy then reality... Its not hard to figure out why fantasy is wining, when someone is not happy with their life or the way that some aspects are turning out you find yourself imagining thinks that you want, well at least i am talking about me... Fantasy is beautiful i can be anywhere i want to be or be with anyone i want to be with its just perfect but when reality hits all the beautiful thinks just disappear, all the beautiful colors pinks, greens and blues turn into blacks, greys and whites... Its really hard to deal with situation like this because i feel lost, i feel like i am in a place where i don't belong, where i don't want to be and at the same time i feel stuck in that place like i don't have a way out, i have felt like this since i was a little girl, that's why i like fantasy more then reality...
Sometimes the only way out of reality is the fantasy...